would say to anyone who would listen, acting them out,
performing them. incanting, conjuring.
Could this be a clean, an unencumbered, link to my soul, between
our souls.
Could I, by revealing my self, the dark the light, the well which is
my being,
would I finally succeed in showing you beauty, I see,
would we be able to hold it in our hands. Regard it
smile in our mutual recognition of it/ourselves.
If I was renowned, the banks rolling in my dough , awards/recognition
up the ass. if you weren't encumbered by the history you know?
What then?
Would the adventures, the lies, fabricated lust, the dreams,
resonate truer?
I have taken it upon myself
though you may not want or need this
I will take this journey in your honor
this after all is what art making and
being and artist is for me
there is no other way
Carl Affarian
11/99
